self inflicted

how does one feel lonely with so much happening around a cage that does not show and does not exist

infinite downhill

as a shepards tone a none ending drop moving and standing still existence and non-existence no escape

invisible pain

hurt only visible to me unable to show to others stuck in my own disbelief yet the pain continues taunting me whenever it wants making me forget when it left forcing me to remember when it returns

self doubt to grow

I’m never good enough the limit above me always the chasm deeper every step afraid to fall a different meaning to the only way is up.

still scared of pain

pain at every turn moving or standing still a self built room that serves no purpose but I can’t leave.

tears in solo

only feeling when I’m alone tears rolling when no one can catch lack of shoulders no safety in sight being as I should be

without a purpose

where do I go not wasting energy eliminating all risk it is safe here no need to move.

running in place

feelings of emptyness aimed at nothing afraid to end up at a dead end not able to move forward.

the start of the unstuck

a place to speak my mind the idea of a sole entity creating the space to feel letting my emotions free bare to the entire world.